What the quiet can bring to my mind

I stayed home from school today because Sara and I have been battling colds all week and just needed a non-structured day to rest. It was fairly productive even though I tried to be lazy. Laundry was done and dishes were cleaned. I even studied some and made sure Darrel had everything he needed for his classes this week.

But he is working the 2nd shift this week which means it is "hopefully" quiet once Sara is in bed. I say hopefully because my mind still plays tricks on me now that I am an adult and I find it hard to relax when Darrel isn't home. I've been like this all of my life and find that it doesn't get better as I get older. Thank goodness it hasn't become worse...but being nervous at night can become a problem.

Luckily we've installed an invisible fence around the house and both carports so the dog can roam where ever he pleases and that does comfort me at times.

Tonight I am just trying to keep occupied until he comes home. This week will be long and exhausting by the time Friday rolls around. And I doubt I'll be able to catch up on relaxing as I have another set of clinicals next week and am sure my lethargic self will be tired and cranky then too. But it will soon be over.

It doesn't feel as if it should be so far into October as it is. Sara keeps reminding us that she will be four years old soon. This is great because we've been telling her and preparing her for her responsibilities that she'll assume when she is four. Right now we are working on her walking to bed and going to sleep on her own. It works fairly well when Dad isn't around because he still likes to spoil her and spend special time with her. But tonight she was given a hug and with few accommodations went to sleep. She is also going to have to keep her room clean. This will be tough for us to instill in her as we are not the best role models for keeping things clean. But our house is much more organized and clean than it normally is and I think it will help her develop the habit of cleanliness.

I can't believe that my little baby is now almost 4. It is great that we can do all sorts of things with her, but now I am missing having a sweet little baby in the house. Darrel laughs at me and tells me that I'm just listening to my biological clock ticking and not paying attention to other things that are more important; i e school. I guess that may be a fundamental difference between me and him. Oh well...