Why is it so hard to humble oneself??

So, I've had many things on my mind and really needed some answers. So I went to what I know I should've been doing all along, reading scriptures. What a mighty relief it has brought me!! I didn't read particularly just to find an answer. I know that the Lord doesn't work like that with me. I knew it had to be a heartfelt attempt to be meek and come back to the straight and narrow. Anyway, whether or not my prayers have been answered I really feel true peace again. I find that my emotions are still on my shirt sleeve and that the adversary is trying to make me give up on what I know to be the right things to do, but I am really trying to be a better person. When Darrel and I were first married I was able to read the scriptures and delve deep into what I was supposed to do. The Lord never failed me in my search for truth. For whatever reasons I have not kept up with the habits I began 5 short years ago. I know that if it were easy to be 'sinless' and full of faith there wouldn't be a need to come to the earth. I am just glad that I have been given yet another chance in following the Lord and putting His will before my own.